"Scanxiety" is something nearly every cancer patient faces at some level or another, and it has been so hard for me to articulate, until this comic. For those confused by the term, "scanxiety" is a slang term for the level of anxiety a cancer patient/survivor experiences when getting examined. This is pretty much how I feel every time (which is pretty gross now that I'm looking at it in picture form).
I think it's easy to dismiss that survivorship is part of the cancer journey, and it carries a stress all its own. Like, for me, my life has really taken off since surviving cancer. I really enjoy my life, fully and completely. But for almost every enjoyable moment, when I excuse myself to the bathroom, I I brace myself for the warning to symptoms to return. I know it's silly to think like that, but I swear it's a part of the scarring I received in addition to my physical scars. I don't show it. But, it's there, and it grows and grows until I hear that once again I am still clear.
If you know someone who has survived cancer, know that you are seeing a person who faces every day wondering if it will come back, and worse. We don't live in fear, per say...just live with a new reality, every day trying to make sense of it.